[He swallows back the rage and hate, he's used to do it so it comes to him as easily as it is for those emotions to raise. There's no pain, he refuses to accept its existence anymore, so talking about it doesn't bother him as much. Part of him even appreciates it, it reminds him who he is, why he has the life he has and who is the responsible of it all beyond a reincarnated goddess that was raised as a spoiled rich kid.]

It's not a problem. But it sounds as if you have some sort of problem, is there someone not remembering things like you do?