uccellodifuoco | 16th Rise of the Phoenix ஜ Voice [Backdated to the 3rd]

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[rpg]luceti

16th Rise of the Phoenix ஜ Voice [Backdated to the 3rd]

[There's a certain sense of emptiness when he wakes up today, specially when he exits his room. Even more when he check's Smoker's room.

Haha. Figures Smoker would vanish from this place not long after getting to know better his feminine side. Figures he would leave before Ikki did. He never thought that would be possible, but it may be exactly because of that that it has happened. He doesn't bother with filters when he opens his journal, violently even, the anger is so noticeable in his voice that it may make people cringe.]

To those taking classes with Smoker. They are canceled. Today, tomorrow, next week and next month probably. Go find a new teacher if you want.

To the pirates. Congratulations, there's one Marine less here to bother you all. Which I think leaves the grand total of zero Marines here.

To anyone else who knew Smoker. He's back home, lucky him.

[It's hard to tell if that "lucky him" is sarcasm or just pure anger dripping from his words. At any rate the journal catches something else before he finishes the record.]

Hyoga, get up. We're out of here. There's no reason to stay here.

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... Ikki-kun? [ She looks a little surprised when she spots him, just staring at him for a few moments as she shifts the journal in her arms - which she won't need now either way, apparently Ikki came to talk to her in person today..?

Kotomi blinks curiously. ]

I'm going to the library, as usual..

[As usual. Right that's all where she's going, nowhere else.]

Smoker has left.

[She probably hasn't heard of it, even if she's carrying the journal.]

He's no longer in Luceti.

Huh..? [ It.. doesn't really seem to dawn on her instantly, with the way she's just standing there and staring at him blankly for a bit. ]

Smoker-kun is gone..? He's not with you anymore, Ikki-kun?

He has returned to his home, away from here, Kotomi. You won't see him anymore unless he returns...

[It's better if he doesn't return, this place isn't their home after all.]

[ See, if it's put that directly she has no choice but to actually understand it. And slowly but surely her expression does drop - she was friends with Smoker, after all, even if it was just for a little bit, and Kotomi easily considers someone a close friend either way. ]

... I see. [ Her voice is a little softer as she stares at her feet. ] So Smoker-kun is gone..

[He just makes an agreement sound.]

But we're still here.

[It's not meant as encouragement, it's not a good thing that they are still here. It's not.]

[ For a moment her gaze trails to him, but then she quickly stop it and looks back at her own feet, shifting the journal in her arms a little yet again as if she's trying to distract herself from the thought, no matter how useless the effort is. ]

Won't Ikki-kun leave too now, though..? [ Even if she already asked him something similar before. It's just that the fear's here again. She knows it could happen, that it's so very possible - everyone will leave once again, leaving her behind alone again. Smoker, Ikki, Rin, Shiki, Tomoyo, Nagisa, Fuuko, everyone will leave. Tomoya left only right after everything that happened with Valentine's Day too, right? It was probably the start of all that, and the thought scares her more than anything, being alone all over again. ]

You will leave before I do.

[Knowing his luck the possibility is high. It has always been that way, everyone left before he did even if he left as well. Even Shun had left first for his training, even the last time he saw him, Shun was already leaving with Athena. It doesn't matter anyway, if they don't leave he will, it's just bad luck that they all leave before he does.]

[ Oh, now that just makes her stare at him in a surprised way instead - even if some of the heavy sadness is still present, making her a bit less blank than usual. ]

... Ikki-kun has psychic powers? You can see into the future..?

No, but it's always that way. I don't see why it would change.

[ It's always that way..? With Kotomi being as gullible as she is she's actually prone to believing that, that it's some kind of rule, but even then.. she doesn't want that, right? Ikki's her friend too, and if he was left behind alone.. that would be much too sad. ]

I don't want to leave before Ikki-kun does. [ And even in the sadness there's something almost determined about it. ]

You want me to leave before you do?

... I just don't want Ikki-kun to be left all alone here.. I don't want Ikki-kun to be lonely, so I'll stay here with him for as long as I can.

Don't worry, sooner or later I will leave as well. I wouldn't be lonely for long.

[ She shakes her head a little. ]

No, I don't want Ikki-kun to be lonely even just for one moment. That would make me very sad too..

You wouldn't even notice it, Kotomi.

[He sighs. It's not as if they could leave at the same time anyway.]

[ well, it's true that if she would leave Luceti she wouldn't remember, but-- ]

... The thought of it already makes me sad now.. Ikki-kun doesn't deserve to be lonely.

Then don't think about it!

[Really girl, stop worrying like that about him.]

It doesn't matter anyway, it won't happen anytime soon.

[ He doesn't like it that she cares about him? :( ]

It's good if it won't happen anytime soon.. It can't happen before White Day, after all. [ because of their promise, it clearly blocks Luceti's workings and all. ]

But.. is it not okay for me to worry about Ikki-kun?

[Maybe he should have made a promise with Smoker as well then.]

Why do you want to worry about me? Worrying won't serve for anything except for you getting hurt and sad. Rather than worrying, why don't just believe in the fact that I will be fine?

[ Do it when he gets back. :| ]

But.. I thought worrying was what friends did for each other. And Ikki-kun is my really important friend, so..

no. Worrying is what you do for yourself and for people you know. But if it's a friend, a really important friend, what you do is believe in them, because that's how they become strong enough to be fine. If you worry about them, you're doubting their capacity to be all right, their strength.

I don't need you to doubt of my strength.

... I don't doubt Ikki-kun's strength.. Ikki-kun is strong, really strong, even strong enough to defeat bullies and things worse than that.. I can't do something like that at all, so I won't doubt Ikki-kun's strength. [ she shakes her head a little. ]

But as a friend I want Ikki-kun to be happy too.. and being happy has nothing to do with strength, right? Or does it..?

Only those who are strong can fight to obtain happiness, Kotomi-chan. And happiness isn't everything there is in the world, not having it doesn't have to be a bad thing.

But being happy is a good thing.. I think.. [ She's starting to look a little more unsure now. ]

And.. if only strong people can get happiness, then.. does that mean I can't?

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