uccellodifuoco | 19th Rise of the Phoenix ஜ Voice

[He always thought that his worst months, the ones he hated the most, were August and September, to be exact the last half of August and the first half of September. But this year Ikki is realizing that he hates February even more. He feels like a caged furious tiger, knowing that something is up, that something is going to happen and that it probably will happen to him and totally unable to do anything to avoid it or escape from it. All he can do is pace in his cage, glare and growl, acting all tough, while inwardly praying to every deity for things to remain fine after the month ends.

He hates to have his feelings played with, he specially hates it when because of that women are hurt once the experiment ends and they realize it was all fake and even if it wasn't his fault he hates it and blames himself for it. But mostly, he hates the idea that Kotomi may be affected again, that come the 14th she may be wandering around the village again, a chocolate box in her hands, ready to give them to someone else who isn't him. And with that hate comes the fear that it may actually happen. That even once the experiment is over she may come to realize she doesn't love him that much or just that the other man is better than Ikki and so he won't just lose her for a few days but forever. But there's nothing he can do to avoid that, to try to ensure that doesn't happen, at least nothing that isn't downright cruel and probably illegal.

Any other day he would convince himself that even if that happened it would be for the better for both of them. But this month he finds himself unable to fool himself as easily as the rest of the year. He may lose Kotomi and not just because it was meant to happen but because a childish so-called scientist thinks that playing with people's hearts is a good experiment. He definitively can't accept that. So rather than just sit and lay low, uncaring for the world, Ikki finds himself more restless than ever. And he realizes it's worrying when he actually grabs his journal and makes a post, hoping that despite some people's strange behavior there will be some left normal enough to engage in conversation and distract him for a bit.]

Hey, Luceti... How many of you have actually ever gotten anything "good" from all the crap the Malnosso put us through? Experiments, drafts, kidnappings, you name it. Do you even bother with trying to find a positive thing to some of those things? Make the best out of it or however you want to say it.

And how many of you have got things downright ruined, or at least damaged enough, because of those thing? Even if you managed to fix things up later on or if you still are dragging along the luggage of that disaster. I'm not asking for details, I'm just curious as to how many chances do I have to not end this month wanting to kill everyone in my sight who looks like a scientist with a weakness to play with people's feelings.

[Private to Kotomi]

I love you.

[Normally he wouldn't say it so openly -even if this is private for just her-, but it's the most direct way he can think of checking if Kotomi has been affected by an experiment or not this month. The day she doesn't answer or answers anything different than showing that she still loves him he's going to have a heart attack.]

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No dude, Jump Square's a magazine, like Shounen Jump or G-Fantasy or stuff. It prints a whole bunch of series.

[He loves how Rin talks as if he had any idea of what he's talking about. Well, he does know what a magazine is at least.]

... Why are there so many magazines just for comics?

[Actually he would ask that about any kind of magazine.]

Because comics are awesome! They're great stories which people of all sorts of ages and genders and stuff can enjoy depending on the series! And the different magazines mix up the demagraphy! [That's "demographics" Rin]

I'm pretty sure books are supposed to do the same. Without you needing to wait monthly or whatever for them to continue the story.

[Except for trilogies and the like but even those tend to have an ending even if an open one to each book of the series.]

But books don't have pictures. At least not on every page.

I don't think they need them. When Kotomi-chan reads to me I can imagine the scenario easily enough with what's written.

Well yeah, you got a girl reading to you...

Yes, I do. I think I mentioned that before already.

[It's not that special anyway.]

Yeah, and that makes it better, obviously!

[He chuckles.]

Is this supposed to be the part where I tell you to get a girl to read to you as well? Feels wrong to say during this month though.

I don't think it's that good anyway. I like it because I like hearing her voice and it's a way to make sure she knows I'm there even if she's busy reading, but it's not that special.

What-?!

Don't knock that man, that is so special! A bunch of people would be really jealous of stuff like that no matter what month it is!

Is it really so hard to get someone to read to you? Can't you ask that to that blonde girl you're friends with?

[Shiemi, whose name Ikki still doesn't know because he never asks or cares about.]

--I can't just ask her something like that! ...Or Shiemi, or anyone!

Why not?

Because that's really embarrassing, obviously!

I have never felt it as embarrassing to ask Kotomi-chan to do that.

[He doesn't consider how it would be with other girls because who even cares about other girls?]

And that's because she's your girlfriend!! Come on man, put it together, two and two!

Don't be stupid, there are things I don't ask her to do because they are embarrassing. Her being my girlfriend has nothing to do with what is embarrassing and what's not.

...Why not?! If she's your girlfriend then you'd clearly doing more embarrassing stuff than havin' her read to you! It's obvious that that would be easier to ask her about than for me to ask Cloche or Shiemi or anyone...!

I tell you we don't do embarrassing stuff. She's Kotomi-chan for goodness sake!

[What kind of things do you think he could do with her anyway?]

But she does embarrassing things all the time just by herself!

... Like what? If it's about her running around telling everyone she was my precious treasure that was Smoker's fault and it wasn't so bad.

Like that, or like when she doesn't know obvious things or she asks strange questions or when she up and ignores people for no reason!

I bet there are a ton of things you don't know that she considers obvious. And she only ignores you if you don't call her Kotomi-chan.

[Unless you're Ikki, he has slipped a few times and she has answered anyway, probably because his voice registers more than what he's saying by now. Could explain why the tsun is useless against her now.]

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