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uccellodifuoco) wrote2013-02-12 11:01 pm
uccellodifuoco) wrote2013-02-12 11:01 pm
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19th Rise of the Phoenix ஜ Voice
[He always thought that his worst months, the ones he hated the most, were August and September, to be exact the last half of August and the first half of September. But this year Ikki is realizing that he hates February even more. He feels like a caged furious tiger, knowing that something is up, that something is going to happen and that it probably will happen to him and totally unable to do anything to avoid it or escape from it. All he can do is pace in his cage, glare and growl, acting all tough, while inwardly praying to every deity for things to remain fine after the month ends.
He hates to have his feelings played with, he specially hates it when because of that women are hurt once the experiment ends and they realize it was all fake and even if it wasn't his fault he hates it and blames himself for it. But mostly, he hates the idea that Kotomi may be affected again, that come the 14th she may be wandering around the village again, a chocolate box in her hands, ready to give them to someone else who isn't him. And with that hate comes the fear that it may actually happen. That even once the experiment is over she may come to realize she doesn't love him that much or just that the other man is better than Ikki and so he won't just lose her for a few days but forever. But there's nothing he can do to avoid that, to try to ensure that doesn't happen, at least nothing that isn't downright cruel and probably illegal.
Any other day he would convince himself that even if that happened it would be for the better for both of them. But this month he finds himself unable to fool himself as easily as the rest of the year. He may lose Kotomi and not just because it was meant to happen but because a childish so-called scientist thinks that playing with people's hearts is a good experiment. He definitively can't accept that. So rather than just sit and lay low, uncaring for the world, Ikki finds himself more restless than ever. And he realizes it's worrying when he actually grabs his journal and makes a post, hoping that despite some people's strange behavior there will be some left normal enough to engage in conversation and distract him for a bit.]
Hey, Luceti... How many of you have actually ever gotten anything "good" from all the crap the Malnosso put us through? Experiments, drafts, kidnappings, you name it. Do you even bother with trying to find a positive thing to some of those things? Make the best out of it or however you want to say it.
And how many of you have got things downright ruined, or at least damaged enough, because of those thing? Even if you managed to fix things up later on or if you still are dragging along the luggage of that disaster. I'm not asking for details, I'm just curious as to how many chances do I have to not end this month wanting to kill everyone in my sight who looks like a scientist with a weakness to play with people's feelings.
[Private to Kotomi]
I love you.
[Normally he wouldn't say it so openly -even if this is private for just her-, but it's the most direct way he can think of checking if Kotomi has been affected by an experiment or not this month. The day she doesn't answer or answers anything different than showing that she still loves him he's going to have a heart attack.]
He hates to have his feelings played with, he specially hates it when because of that women are hurt once the experiment ends and they realize it was all fake and even if it wasn't his fault he hates it and blames himself for it. But mostly, he hates the idea that Kotomi may be affected again, that come the 14th she may be wandering around the village again, a chocolate box in her hands, ready to give them to someone else who isn't him. And with that hate comes the fear that it may actually happen. That even once the experiment is over she may come to realize she doesn't love him that much or just that the other man is better than Ikki and so he won't just lose her for a few days but forever. But there's nothing he can do to avoid that, to try to ensure that doesn't happen, at least nothing that isn't downright cruel and probably illegal.
Any other day he would convince himself that even if that happened it would be for the better for both of them. But this month he finds himself unable to fool himself as easily as the rest of the year. He may lose Kotomi and not just because it was meant to happen but because a childish so-called scientist thinks that playing with people's hearts is a good experiment. He definitively can't accept that. So rather than just sit and lay low, uncaring for the world, Ikki finds himself more restless than ever. And he realizes it's worrying when he actually grabs his journal and makes a post, hoping that despite some people's strange behavior there will be some left normal enough to engage in conversation and distract him for a bit.]
Hey, Luceti... How many of you have actually ever gotten anything "good" from all the crap the Malnosso put us through? Experiments, drafts, kidnappings, you name it. Do you even bother with trying to find a positive thing to some of those things? Make the best out of it or however you want to say it.
And how many of you have got things downright ruined, or at least damaged enough, because of those thing? Even if you managed to fix things up later on or if you still are dragging along the luggage of that disaster. I'm not asking for details, I'm just curious as to how many chances do I have to not end this month wanting to kill everyone in my sight who looks like a scientist with a weakness to play with people's feelings.
[Private to Kotomi]
I love you.
[Normally he wouldn't say it so openly -even if this is private for just her-, but it's the most direct way he can think of checking if Kotomi has been affected by an experiment or not this month. The day she doesn't answer or answers anything different than showing that she still loves him he's going to have a heart attack.]
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[Who said anything about carrying it around, girl.]
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[ her hands move to fumble a little nervously with the fabric of her clothes. ]
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Then just give me a call and I'll come to sit in front of you and listen to your violin. It's not such a complicated problem.
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.. D.. does Ikki-kun not want to listen after all..? Doesn't he like it?
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[Just... What's going on in that head of yours Kotomi-chan. How does he have to spell it?]
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[Some soft sarcasm as he sighs. Whatever is he going to do with this girl?]
I'm comfortable anywhere in this place, so long as you're around it doesn't matter to me where it is. If you want to come do so, you don't need permission or anything, just come whenever you want.
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[ DON'T MAKE IT SOUND LIKE AN OBLIGATION. ]
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[And he wouldn't be mad at her, he would just kill the bastard in the most painful manner and then take her back. Screaming and crying and bullying calling be damned.]
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But why would I hug and kiss some guy who isn't Ikki-kun? After all, I love Ikki-kun, not someone else..
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[Don't make him say it.]
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But then Ikki-kun doesn't have to get mad! I would never do something like that, so.. Ikki-kun can just be happy with me forever..
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Exactly, so if you understand now, let's go to hear you play.
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Back in there..? That's where my violin is.
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[ And you need to pick some specific place at least, Ikki!! ]
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Your home or somewhere in the forest, whatever you prefer of the two.
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[ IT WOULD DO MORE TO THEM THAN JUST SCARE THEM, KOTOMI. Luceti's wildlife would be ruined forever. ]
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[And thus Luceti's wildlife was extinguished.]
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Then let's go out into the forest and I'll play there. Ikki-kun can sit down there and listen..
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All right, get your violin so we can get going then.