Phoenix Ikki (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
uccellodifuoco) wrote2013-02-12 11:01 pm
uccellodifuoco) wrote2013-02-12 11:01 pm
Entry tags:
19th Rise of the Phoenix ஜ Voice
[He always thought that his worst months, the ones he hated the most, were August and September, to be exact the last half of August and the first half of September. But this year Ikki is realizing that he hates February even more. He feels like a caged furious tiger, knowing that something is up, that something is going to happen and that it probably will happen to him and totally unable to do anything to avoid it or escape from it. All he can do is pace in his cage, glare and growl, acting all tough, while inwardly praying to every deity for things to remain fine after the month ends.
He hates to have his feelings played with, he specially hates it when because of that women are hurt once the experiment ends and they realize it was all fake and even if it wasn't his fault he hates it and blames himself for it. But mostly, he hates the idea that Kotomi may be affected again, that come the 14th she may be wandering around the village again, a chocolate box in her hands, ready to give them to someone else who isn't him. And with that hate comes the fear that it may actually happen. That even once the experiment is over she may come to realize she doesn't love him that much or just that the other man is better than Ikki and so he won't just lose her for a few days but forever. But there's nothing he can do to avoid that, to try to ensure that doesn't happen, at least nothing that isn't downright cruel and probably illegal.
Any other day he would convince himself that even if that happened it would be for the better for both of them. But this month he finds himself unable to fool himself as easily as the rest of the year. He may lose Kotomi and not just because it was meant to happen but because a childish so-called scientist thinks that playing with people's hearts is a good experiment. He definitively can't accept that. So rather than just sit and lay low, uncaring for the world, Ikki finds himself more restless than ever. And he realizes it's worrying when he actually grabs his journal and makes a post, hoping that despite some people's strange behavior there will be some left normal enough to engage in conversation and distract him for a bit.]
Hey, Luceti... How many of you have actually ever gotten anything "good" from all the crap the Malnosso put us through? Experiments, drafts, kidnappings, you name it. Do you even bother with trying to find a positive thing to some of those things? Make the best out of it or however you want to say it.
And how many of you have got things downright ruined, or at least damaged enough, because of those thing? Even if you managed to fix things up later on or if you still are dragging along the luggage of that disaster. I'm not asking for details, I'm just curious as to how many chances do I have to not end this month wanting to kill everyone in my sight who looks like a scientist with a weakness to play with people's feelings.
[Private to Kotomi]
I love you.
[Normally he wouldn't say it so openly -even if this is private for just her-, but it's the most direct way he can think of checking if Kotomi has been affected by an experiment or not this month. The day she doesn't answer or answers anything different than showing that she still loves him he's going to have a heart attack.]
He hates to have his feelings played with, he specially hates it when because of that women are hurt once the experiment ends and they realize it was all fake and even if it wasn't his fault he hates it and blames himself for it. But mostly, he hates the idea that Kotomi may be affected again, that come the 14th she may be wandering around the village again, a chocolate box in her hands, ready to give them to someone else who isn't him. And with that hate comes the fear that it may actually happen. That even once the experiment is over she may come to realize she doesn't love him that much or just that the other man is better than Ikki and so he won't just lose her for a few days but forever. But there's nothing he can do to avoid that, to try to ensure that doesn't happen, at least nothing that isn't downright cruel and probably illegal.
Any other day he would convince himself that even if that happened it would be for the better for both of them. But this month he finds himself unable to fool himself as easily as the rest of the year. He may lose Kotomi and not just because it was meant to happen but because a childish so-called scientist thinks that playing with people's hearts is a good experiment. He definitively can't accept that. So rather than just sit and lay low, uncaring for the world, Ikki finds himself more restless than ever. And he realizes it's worrying when he actually grabs his journal and makes a post, hoping that despite some people's strange behavior there will be some left normal enough to engage in conversation and distract him for a bit.]
Hey, Luceti... How many of you have actually ever gotten anything "good" from all the crap the Malnosso put us through? Experiments, drafts, kidnappings, you name it. Do you even bother with trying to find a positive thing to some of those things? Make the best out of it or however you want to say it.
And how many of you have got things downright ruined, or at least damaged enough, because of those thing? Even if you managed to fix things up later on or if you still are dragging along the luggage of that disaster. I'm not asking for details, I'm just curious as to how many chances do I have to not end this month wanting to kill everyone in my sight who looks like a scientist with a weakness to play with people's feelings.
[Private to Kotomi]
I love you.
[Normally he wouldn't say it so openly -even if this is private for just her-, but it's the most direct way he can think of checking if Kotomi has been affected by an experiment or not this month. The day she doesn't answer or answers anything different than showing that she still loves him he's going to have a heart attack.]
no subject
no subject
[She said anytime. She's not the only one who can take things literally.]
no subject
So she just nods a little. ]
I'll try to hurry.. [ .. Although this is Kotomi we're talking about, so it probably means something more like 'try to hurry but trip over your own feet in the middle of it since you're so oblivious'.. ]
no subject
[Yeah, he knows what "hurry" implies for her.]
no subject
.. Hmm. If Ikki-kun says so, I definitely won't hurry. [ The other extreme opposite, as usually with her.. ]
no subject
[Her being slow may be more desirable, at least she won't get hurt.]
no subject
Ikki-kun.. good day.
no subject
He smiles once he sees her come out, as pretty as ever.]
Good day, Kotomi-chan. You look as pretty as always.
[Normally he wouldn't say it, but... He's worried enough to actually dere at her a bit more than usual. See he even goes to hug and kiss her right away, not giving her just a signal for her to do it if she wants, nope. This hug and kiss aren't an option.]
no subject
.. Hehe. Is Ikki-kun in a good mood now..? [ Ah, even she can tell this time?! ]
no subject
I'm always in a good mood, Kotomi-chan.
no subject
Somehow it's like Ikki-kun's mood today is extra good.. I'm glad.
no subject
[Mental grumbling and trying to find a hole to crawl into. Suddenly he gets an idea, maybe if he distracts her... He smiles lightly at her.]
Is it because I said I wanted to listen to you play? You really love playing your violin, don't you?
no subject
Uh-huh, of course I really like playing it. I want to make people happy with my music.. [ Even if it has the opposite effect. ] So I want to play even more for Ikki-kun, since I want to make Ikki-kun the happiest.
no subject
Unfortunately, thinking that and saying it are two different things.]
Then you should play as much as you want for me. Even if I don't ask you to, I've no reasons to say no to listening to you playing.
no subject
I can't carry my violin with me everywhere though, it's pretty fragile, you know.. If it would ever break and I could never play anymore, I would be very, very sad about it.
no subject
[Who said anything about carrying it around, girl.]
no subject
[ her hands move to fumble a little nervously with the fabric of her clothes. ]
no subject
Then just give me a call and I'll come to sit in front of you and listen to your violin. It's not such a complicated problem.
no subject
.. D.. does Ikki-kun not want to listen after all..? Doesn't he like it?
no subject
[Just... What's going on in that head of yours Kotomi-chan. How does he have to spell it?]
no subject
no subject
[Some soft sarcasm as he sighs. Whatever is he going to do with this girl?]
I'm comfortable anywhere in this place, so long as you're around it doesn't matter to me where it is. If you want to come do so, you don't need permission or anything, just come whenever you want.
no subject
[ DON'T MAKE IT SOUND LIKE AN OBLIGATION. ]
no subject
[And he wouldn't be mad at her, he would just kill the bastard in the most painful manner and then take her back. Screaming and crying and bullying calling be damned.]
no subject
But why would I hug and kiss some guy who isn't Ikki-kun? After all, I love Ikki-kun, not someone else..
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)